“Anyway, I keep picturing all these little kids playing some game in this big field of rye and all. Thousands of little kids, and nobody’s around - nobody big, I mean - except me. And I’m standing on the edge of some crazy cliff. What I have to do, I have to catch everybody if they start to go over the cliff - I mean if they’re running and they don’t look where they’re going I have to come out from somewhere and catch them. That’s all I do all day. I’d just be the catcher in the rye and all. I know it’s crazy, but that’s the only thing I’d really like to be.”—
“Endings are never easy. I always build them up so much in my head that they can’t possibly live up to my expectations and I just end up disappointed. I’m not even sure why it matters to me so much how things end. I guess it’s because we all want to believe that what we do is very important. That people hang on to our every word, that they care what we think. The truth is, you should consider yourself lucky if you even occasionally get to make someone, anyone, feel a little better.”—-Scrubs
I went to Metrobar last night with Dad’s side of the family to watch Vice Ganda and other gay comedians. HILAROUS! I haven’t laughed that hard in a LONG time.
Today we went to Megamall. Eastwood tonight!
We’re gonna watch NE-YO @ Mall of Asia next week! (I wish I brought my 80-200 :[ )
I decided that I’m gonna find work this year, so that next Christmas break I can come back. I LOVE IT HERE.
I love it here because Filipinos here aren’t like Filipinos in the States. They don’t like drama; they’re simple, and they’re fun-loving.
Goal in life: Philippines once a year. I don’t care how much it is.
i hear ya man. Philippines once a year would seriously be the most amazing thing ever. i’m with you, i would rather not spend any money and stay away from every mall all year just to save up to go again this Christmas. and ahh you’re gonna watch Ne-Yo, luckyyy! haha i asked my dad if we could stay longer so i can see him live at MOA, but he said i would have to buy my own plane ticket back =P have fun!
i've only been home for about 5 hours, and i already really really miss the Philippines
=/ sometimes i hate how nostalgic and emotional i can get. half of me feels relieved to be home, but the other half wants to take the next flight out of here straight to the Philippines. its funny though, i can still remember my first day there like it was yesterday. its been replaying in my mind ever since we left the airport. not that it was really eventful or anything, but to me it was memorable. christmas and new years was absolutely amazing, 10x better than here in the States. i’ll post more pictures and other stuff about that later, but for now i’ll just share a little something here. WARNING: really, really long blog up ahead =P
i miss my family back “home”. while i was there, i kept thinking how different my life would be if my parents decided to stay in the Philippines instead of moving to the US. i mean obviously it would be totally different, but to think just how much different it would really be and how different i would be really made me think. the last time i visited was back in Dec 2001. its been 8 years since we last made a trip to the Philippines. 8 long years since i’ve seen my cousins/aunts/uncles. crazzzyy. but i saw that being close to family is a big thing in the Philippines, even on both my mom’s side and my dad’s side. family is very important to me too, its just here in NJ i only have 2 cousins close by and we’re always so busy we go months without really talking sometimes. me, my mom, dad, and sister are all close, but sometimes that can get kind of lonely. if we lived in the Philippines, all of my cousins, aunts, uncles would be within reach and we would hang out all the time. and there are ALOT of them, haha. now, i do not want to sound ungrateful or anything, because i know my parents went through some hard times and took a big chance leaving their life and family behind just to give me a better life here in the States, taking a huge risk for something better, and i am thankful for the life we have now, but i do wish i had that “close knit family feeling” here too all year around. i like that feeling of having a big support system where eveyone is so willing to help out. i do feel like i have that now, but it would just be different i guess. idk if this is making any sense right now, i’m still a bit jetlagged :P i enjoyed experiencing the holiday spirit in the Philippines and having bonding time with my cousins. i just wish it wont have to be another 8 years to see them again..
even though i got like 15 new mosquito bites and sometimes complained about how hot it was during the day, and even though my clothes kept getting lost from all the traveling we did, this has been my favorite trip that me and my family have taken in a long time. and for that, i will always be grateful and thankful for the time we spent together.
i thought i would stay up all night here, since its only like 4pm in the Philippines right now. but i’m actually feeling pretty tired now and kind of bummed and sad, so i guess i’ll just go to bed right after this. i just wanted to let my fam back in PI know (if any of them read this) that i miss them and hope to see them soon <3 more to come later..
**ohh and to @theycallmehandski and @itsreechard, sorry i couldnt hang out with you guys while i was there. as our vacation was winding down, me and my fam were trying to fit in so many things in that i just didnt really have the time to hang out =/ sowwies. but i hope you guys have fun on the rest of your trip! maybe when you get back, we can swap stories and reminisce on how awesome the Philippines is =)