You’d better know that in the end Its better to say too much Then never say what you need to say again
Sorry i didn’t get a chance to say what was on my mind. I have a tendency to not confront something when i feel like i’m going to get emotional (working on it though). The only person i’m really mad at is myself right now, but it’ll all be ok. i’ll make it ok, i have to.
my eyes still feel so tired, like after you’ve watched a really sad movie and cried your eyes out. i feel like there’s still SO much i want to say but i don’t have the time or energy right now to fully express all of my feelings into words, but the past week has been a whirlwind for me and now i can finally say i am a proud Seton Hall alumni. “Hazard Zet Forward”, always <3
full (& probably really lengthy) post about this later.. for now, i just need a drink.
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do somehing else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”—Mitch Albom (via kari-shma)
“What I was really hanging around for, I was trying to feel some kind of good-by. I mean I’ve left schools and places I didn’t even know I was leaving them. I hate that. I don’t care if it’s a sad good-by or a bad good-by, but when I leave a place I want to know I’m leaving it. If you don’t, you feel even worse.”—J. D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via dielittlehero)
Remember me once and a while, please promise me you'll try
Photo credit: camillionaire
so thanks to my school, i was finally able to watch Phantom of the Opera, one of my favorite movies ever, on Broadway last Monday night for super cheap. even though i’ll probably be posting this a good time after i actually saw the play, i did write mostly all of this that night when i got home so that it was still fresh in my head. now that i’ve organized everything, here it is..
while the production of the whole play was outstanding and pretty spectacular in my eyes, it still fell just a bit short of my expectations. & honestly now that i think about it, i guess i really don’t really mind. i was actually afraid of this happening early that day when i was thinking about how excited i was to see it, but at the same time worried that i had built it up too much in my head to set it up for a big fall when it didn’t meet those expectations. but it wasn’t bad at all & i still loved it!
when i got home from the city that night, the movie was still loaded on my computer from the night before when i watched it. i started from the beginning and kinda skimmed through it trying to compare the major scenes found in both the movie and play. i couldn’t really form a great opinion about it after we got out of the theater other than “it was awesome”, so i wanted to sit down, take my time thinking about it, and see how i felt. (this was a big deal for me, if you couldn’t already tell)
i think for me, some of the major songs that i consider my favorites are what fell short of my high expectations for watching the play, but i guess i set myself up for that and i just blame that on me. it might also be because we were sitting pretty far away from the stage so we couldn’t see the people’s faces too well and couldn’t hear it as clearly. “Think of Me”, the first major song i was excited for, has different lyrics on the Broadway soundtrack & i much prefer the movie version any day. that song always makes me feel nostalgic and peaceful at the same time. i guess the most “disappointing” scene for me was “All I Ask of You”. since it’s my favorite scene from the movie, i had the highest of expectations for it and it didn’t deliver the way i hoped it would. although the setting on stage was pretty cool, it felt much more romantic in the movie. for long periods of the song during that scene on stage, Raul and Christine weren’t even facing each other and then had to just awkwardly run into each other’s arms when they had to kiss. i guess it just felt less “magical” to me.
the one song that actually lived up to the hype for me was “Music of the Night”, mostly because you can’t really mess up with that scene. when i first discovered this soundtrack, i would play this song as a lullaby at night for that moment right before you’re about to fall asleep and it would just make me feel calm and ready to dream. a scene i also liked better in the play than the movie was the “note scene” where they are all reading the different notes that Phantom left for various people. that was fun to listen to. during the play though, my friends and i were crying from laughing soo hard when the Phantom decided to awkwardly push Christine’s face away and when he was just crawling to her after she fell down at one point. that was distracting actually, i don’t even remember what scene that was but i was dying. the “Masquerade” scene though was no doubt the greatest performance and i thought it was cooler to watch it on that kind of set on stage than in a movie. “Point of No Return” is probably my second favorite scene in the movie and it again fell a bit short. to me the passion between the two translated better in film, especially during that scene. it was also disappointing to not see the chandelier crash at the end of that song like it was suppose to!
for those who watched the play without first watching the movie (aka Camille and Ben) i really recommend watching the movie to fully appreciate what you saw on stage. that is, if you still want to learn more about it. i doubt they’re going to actually read this anyway and even if they do they probs won’t even care anymore, but i just think the whole experience would be better if it was understood more properly. i guess because a movie allows for more time to get into the details of the characters’ development, the movie really shows more about who the Phantom is and why he acts the way he does. even during the play when Madame Giry was trying to explain to Raul what the deal was with the Phantom, the whole time she just sounded angry and i couldn’t really understand what she was saying.
now i can see why Ben wanted to cry when it was over (sorry Ben), because i feel like part of the story just stays with you. i mean idk if that’s why he felt like crying then, but it does with me anyway. i guess i’m a little bias though because this has been one of my favorite movies for so long and that’s why i’m so passionate about it now. honestly after coming home from watching the play and quickly skimming through the movie to come up with this “review”, i too found myself crying for this story. nothing hardcore or anything, but there were a few tears building up. i came to appreciate this love story even more after seeing it live and now after quickly rewatching the movie again, i just feel an overall sense of compassion for each of these characters that feels haunting and moving. the part that always gets me in the movie is at the end when Christine gives Phantom the ring back and he’s crying singing “i love you” to her. it’s cool to see a story grow to new levels by experiencing it in different artistic ways. i think i would rate the actual play an 8 out of 10 but the whole play experience a 9.5 out of 10.
okay that’s enough now, i could talk about this for hours and there’s probably more i could say but i’ll stop now. if you actually read this entire thing, bless you for getting through it. [SHOUT OUT TO RYAN WHO’S PROBABLY GOING TO BE THE ONE PERSON WHO READS THIS. HI RYAN! lol] haha overall, it was a really great experience and i’m glad i got to share it with good friends. i’m sad i forgot to take a group picture with everyone there though, i always forget to do that. i’m actually kinda missing it now and really wouldn’t mind seeing it again! yay, Phantom! t’was a dream come trueee.
“I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we’ll never know most of them. But even if we don’t have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.”—The Perks of Being a Wallflower
HAHA! i love this gif. i was looking back on my archive to look for these othertwo similar “finals week” post. didn’t realize i posted both of them on the same date at the time of my Fall finals. it’s just crazy to think how all of this will be over so soon.
LAST FINALS WEEK OF MY UNDERGRADUATE CAREER, LET’S GOOO.
ahh this song makes me smileee!! haha i heard it on 1250 AM, aka new favorite radio station, the other day and i just found myself cheesin’ all the way through it. idk what it is, but it makes me happy =)
actually had an enjoyable day at school with the 2 classes i had being more fun and silly than usual (i guess my professors are just as excited that school’s almost over). then went to the mall & got a cool blazer for a great deal + this brown leather bag that i’ve been eyeing for like the past month & finally just decided to get it + a cool new wallet/clutch + FINALLY finding trousers that fit me pretty well that actually look nice and were only $15+ a couple pairs of cute socks because i really couldn’t help myself (i think i might have a problem). then had a good workout and also had time to squeeze in a small conversation with that cutie from muscle maker. then had yummy pad thai for dinner which was totally counter productive to exercising, but still worth it..
now that’s what i call a productive day. haha i normally don’t “blog” about my day like that but it was just that nice i guess and i want to remember it. plus i’m just really excited for what’s coming up this month. despite having finals next week and still the week after that, i’m excited just for the next few days: jcole, carnival at school, phantom of the opera!! now i get to go to bed at a reasonable hour (granted i’m actually able to fall asleep soon) and wake up hopefully not too sore.