For me, it’s these hours of the night (when you’re supposed to be studying, but aren’t) that get to me. That’s when you start thinking. Thinking hard. That’s when you want to talk to someone because you think so hard. All you wish for is to be heard.
It’s during the night that I tend to bring…
i know exactly how this feels, every word. it’s during these late hours at night where i would write a lot of things on tumblr about how i was feeling that day or what was going on with me that week or whatever else, especially a lot during the last school year where i was going through some personal things and felt so alone pretty much all the time. those posts are private, for obvious reasons, but seeing how there are other people here on tumblr and in real life that feel the same things as you or are going through what you are/have been, it’s very comforting. the whole “you are not alone” thing is just as cliche as “feeling alone” [cue Michael Jackson’s ‘You Are Not Alone’ song], but i never really understood it until now actually. i felt like i couldn’t talk to anyone i knew about any of this ‘cause i figured no one really felt the same or could relate. i mean, it’s normal to feel these things, especially when we’re young and we’re still trying to figure out who we are and what we want. but it’s hard going through all that when you feel like no one is there to go through it with you. idk, this post just hit close to home for me :P
*oh and i agree about the guard at the front gate (we go to the same school here), but i go through the back gate and i think they switched the “guard who waves to everyone” to the front ‘cause this semester there this new guy at ward gate who just stares at me as i role into school.. rude. haha but the new guard smiles sometimes, so that’s nice. maybe i should drive to the front gate just to see my old pal one of these days, when i’m not in such a hurry to get to class.